The first time I met a very good boy, he is from afghanistan. when I first knew him when he greeted me through facebook. He introduced himself, he said hi how are you? I said I am fine and he said I am a muslim from afghanistan .. and that's when we got to know each other.
every day I think about him. every night I waited for him online. My feeling has always wanted to wait for him.
when he is not online for a while. I was desperate and I felt something was missing in my life. I keep him photo that I took from his facebook and I spoke with him photo. I asked myself (Was this love?)
and I began to smile when he comes back online .. we talk and share. That's when I feel fit. I do not care even though he's far .. I feel my happiness when I am with him.
He was a good boy and was able to make me smile.
6 January 2011 he says love me. I can not believe and I feel very happy. every day we chat every day we are told. he is a man who is very sweet .. Sometimes he was upset because I often turn off the webcam and when he wants anything from me I always reject it. I act like it because I was embarrassed, I felt unworthy to him because he is handsome and I am not
even though he is far from me. I love him I do not even think about loving another boy. I reject another boy just because he is .. maybe people think I'm crazy. but I do not care.
I'm very jealous when he comments on facebook and write walls to another girl but I'm just quiet. My heart hurt but I just smile . then I decided to end my relationship with him because I'm so jealous .. I'm jealous because I love him so much.
at 12 o'clock at night he called me by phone and he cried. I was very surprised .. he said do you love me? I said no. he always asked but I said no.
I said no because I'm so jealous.
when we're not online .. I feel very hurt .. I feel so lost .. he also felt the same. and we decided to start a new relationship that's where I feel this is called love .. even though we are far away we are trusting to understand each other.
we were end our relationship for one reason. maybe this is the best way for us both. I promise I'll tell this happiness for my children and my husband later. and I will remember you, you in my heart. never and never I forget you.
I hope you get a good girl and may God give you happiness always.
Mohammad Murtaza Surkhaby
you are always in my heart
january 6.2011 - forever
